I got this

Ken and I recently had an opportunity come up that was a win-win regardless of which way it ended up going.

How rare is that?!

Usually when a potential change comes my way I have a decidedly specific outcome that I desire.  I can't even muster up must creativity to envision an outcome that deviates even slightly from what I want to happen.

And so my prayers end up looking something like this: "Lord, please make (THIS ONE SPECIFIC THING) happen in this (EXACT) way. Amen."

How often does that actually happen?!

sigh.

Good thing God always knows what is really best for me and ignores me when I beg for whatever delights my fancy at that moment. 

This particular situation I found incredibly refreshing, though.  I really didn't have a preference for a particular outcome.  I could see very good things coming from it happening with a few downfalls that are to be expected and I could see incredibly good things from the alternative with a couple disappointments thrown in.  Either way the outcome was far from perfect but still a cool change and worth pursuing.

So instead of having a carefully-worded prayer ready to repeat over and over and over and over again, I felt nothing but peace over whatever God had planned.  He knows.  He can see into our future and know what we would need and when we would need it.  He knows what kinds of change we can handle right now and which ones we can't.  He knows what will fulfill us and provide for us.

Either way we can't lose.

GOSH!  Why don't I ALWAYS look at my life like that?  In this particular set of circumstances I found it so easy to just rest and let God decide what to do.  He would make the right door open or close depending on his plan.  I didn't really care which way it went.  Why don't I always feel that way?  Do you know how much stress I could save myself if I approached every day like this?  "OK, God.  Do your thing." 

When we lost Jaxson, my Kindred Spirit Tami told me that she was arguing with God over what had happened (I really love that she took on the Almighty God over our loss...she always has my back) and she told me that in the middle of her rant with Him, He told her very clearly, "I got this." 

And lately those words have been echoing in my spirit over and over.  He's got this.  He's got us.  He's got me.  And everything little thing is going to be OK.